Scary October
The last days of it
And the last one the scariest
Scary body
Afraid to let go
Afraid to fall a sleep
Afraid to stop thinking
Afraid to sleep in
So turned on
So fixated
So frustrated
By confusion
By all the acts
All the words
All the energies
All the feelings
All the feelings that didn’t feel right
Scary October
Due to end
Due to flow into the next thing
Due to transform
Its energy
To end
To die
To let go
Scary pumpkins
Scary nights
Scary moonlight
Shining too bright
So bright through the window
So bright and alive
Way too shiny in the night
Keeping me awake
Keeping me afloat
On the wild dark ocean
Feeling endings
Honoring endings
That is scary
Scary October
With empty hands
Open empty hands
Can receive something new
But before receiving
They are bare
Empty
Emptyhanded I go
Looking at the trees
As they go empty
We both go empty
So I am not alone in this?
Empty and bald
The tree goes on
To restore
For the better
For renewal
And that time in between
Is awkward
Is dark
Is scary