Anna

SAFE in my body around people around work to be that to arrange that to allow myself safety but it will be surreal it will be the big unknown it will be a state  a stagnant state? a suffocating state? a locked up state? to have something I ve never had to have something that […]Continue reading

PULL Me neglected Me renewed Me strengthened Me confident Confident But tensed Confident But pent up Confident But on the edge On  the verge On the excited leap Over the fence In the unknown land In the new land Me On the devious side Me on the other side Me thriving Me blooming Me drawing […]Continue reading

over eating, over working, over do-ing it. A redo. Doing it long, forgetting the breaks. overjoyed, overflowing, overthrown and into the new. The scary new. The new is over the top. The new is the other side. The new is the other side of the hill. I climbed it and I got out of the […]Continue reading

Baby, baby, baby It is okay to rest It is okay to not pass the test It is okay to fear It is okay I am near But you can have it all You can try it all It is okay if you fail You can have it all If you keep going It is […]Continue reading

INTEGRATION on a thursday integrate the impressions the goals with the actions the right action or the right surrender surrendering being being pure being the highest me being true true to my goals being authentic being honest being kind i am not willing I am too rigid I am inflexible I am rushed I am […]Continue reading

CARE caring is learning caring is doing caring is becoming caring is action-taking caring is discipline caring is disciplined care caring is consistent care caring is seeing the other caring is building the other up caring is reassuring caring is encouraging caring is deep conversations caring is emotional support care involves emotions care involves courage […]Continue reading

Defenseless? Unaware Vulnerable Hurt-able because of trauma the trauma of verbal assault the trauma of outrage the trauma of fleeing the inability to go back the inability to resolve the inability of finding a closed door the inability of no other choice the trap of avoidance the hurt the pushed away hurt the shame it […]Continue reading

Growing up I was not allowed to show fear. I was not allowed to be scared, afraid or tired. I lived on a farm, things were rough. The wind was rough, the cold was rough, the language was rough. I needed to show strength in biking the long commute from home to school. I needed […]Continue reading

DONE with mockers the unbelievers the pleasers the judgers the awkwards ones fuck off I proof you wrong I will make you see I will show the truth Life will always show truth as I am choosing life I am choosing me I am choosing happiness I am choosing to live life my way My […]Continue reading

loving darkness healing darkness stay with me stay here  Consoling darkness  do not go I am here appreciating I am here enjoying I am here restoring working on my pain Feeling my pain almost there digging for it Comforting darkness your peace is appreciated the quiet time makes me calm is it not your calm […]Continue reading